end of an era

wow,
i broke up with my boyfriend for 5 years...
it feels so sad in a way, and glad too, but kinda hard.
this is something that i should've done ages ago,
but it's always hard...
it's not that there's anything wrong with him,
there's only one thing wrong,
and that doesn't even a big of a deal for me,
but totally a huge problem. (blah.. get it?)



we've practically been together since i moved to the states,
and now... it is so weird, not having him as a boyfriend...
i am coping in my own weird way...

i kept on thinking of the good ol' days...
when i was still in boston, driving around in his red saab...
fuck!!! i miss him so...
but then, everytime i see him, he drives me crazy, i feel like
i'm gonna kick and scream and hate him forever.
probably because i blamed it on him...



i always thought of whether we should be together in the first place or not...
but then, i will never trade everything we've been through with anything.
he was everything to me...
we had our time,
now it's time to end it, and move on.

but it's sooooo saaaaddddddddddddddddd
i care about him so much.....
which makes me hate relationships now.
it is a fucking torture!

it's the end of our time,
hopefully we can both cope and start fresh...
i will love him forever.
and boston will always be our city.

"i'll remember the love,strength,happiness that you gave me, now that i'm standing on my own" -madonna-


-kwack-